Hai hai ..
It's been a long time since i didnt post anything in this blog ...
well guys... something unexpected happen in my birthday day .. =(
to be honest ... its seriusly effect me...
u know y ?
well .. i done a lot to show how i love u, how i care u ...
how i wish u to realise it..
or maybe it is too early to ask u that question ....
well then, if not today, then when ???
actually, semalam i tunggu u lama k...
siapa main dota g ... haish ...
then yeah .. u come with reason ...
well it is okay for me...
then we start to chit chat as usual ... well for me its okay la since its been a long time we didnt chat like that o ...
then come to the stupid question i ask u ...
well ' do u love me? i need to make decision today '
i expect u to say 'yes'
i have high expectation ...
but u say what ?
its 'NO'
i ask for 2nd time ...
answer is still 'no'
well done ...
after that i feel i in different world... :(
i am just asking ...
u answer seems like we so long just a friend ??? wtf is this ...
u know how much time i sacrifice just to chit-chat with u ...
well its so clear... so we are friend right ?
u fucking serious ?
then okay la ... cibai la ....
i should stop from keep chasing u i guess ...
like it is all useless
u wont see it
u blind meh ? cb
how i wish u see it ...
well after we chat ... i'm not in mood and just go play game...
well u know me ...
after that i keep wait ...
maybe u will text me n say ' sorry ' like that
well... hell 'NO'
like that ma ?
i just go sleep then until evening ...
i wake up still no .. no .. no
for real ?
nevermind i say .. i sleep again until night ...
well then i feel a bit stupid ask u that stupid Q maybe ..
i whatsapp u dude ...
really no reply ? well its 1.38 am now ... hell yeah ... i still waiting ...
well i can say i am too fucking 'stupid to love u' ...
maybe ?
dear god, i wish one day i will gone so that she will have a happy life without me ...
people always say ...
" u less care ... until she/he go away from your life "
well i try hard to show how i love u
people may say
' u can't force people to love u, but u can make them love u '
yeah... that is exactly what i did ...
and still fucking 'NO' ?
well u can't force people to say 'yes'
nevermind ... well after all, i will gone for a few days, or maybe weeks, maybe months or year ... then only u realised ... well..
will u realise ? oh i am sure not ? even i die also u won't realise la ...
i 100% sure ...
well birthday is a birthday day ... u can't change it ...
maybe now u won't see it ...
i wish someday u will see it and realise it ...
its enough la... okay fanly ... please wake up !!!
so my birthday wish is to see u happy even though i am hurted .. its okay ...
i am happy when u are happy =)
sleep time .. well tmrw pls wake up with new mood dear Fanly !!! enough ... u are 21 ...
i hope i will get something good this year =)
